Tuesday, 27 September 2011

Thank you Angel


Despite how hard this journey is, Angel has given Jeff and I many gifts, including being able to hold her precious little body when she was born, which I am very thankful for. She has also reminded us of the fragility of life and to appreciate those around you - to be compassionate and to try to be a better person while we are on Earth.
I do hope to share Angel's story on this blog, one day in the near future.  At the moment, I just want to thank her for allowing me to experience almost 32 weeks of pregnancy and to be amazed at all its wonders.

I was amazed to see her wave her hands and dance around on the ultrasound screen. I got to hear her heartbeat and cry at the sound of it.  I was amazed to feel her pokes and squirms as she moved around inside me, especially when I ate pizza or something sweet like ice cream (she was definitely her father's daughter!).  Jeff and I experienced talking and singing to her and telling her we loved her.

Angel gave me that experience and I thank her everyday for choosing me.  She may have very well known that she had only a short while on this Earth and she chose ME to spend it with.  Thank you my sweet girl.

Monday, 19 September 2011

Twelve Freedoms of Healing In Grief

You have the freedom to realize your grief is unique.
You have the freedom to talk about your grief.
You have the freedom to expect to feel a multitude of emotions.
You have the freedom to allow for numbness.
You have the freedom to be tolerant of your physical and emotional limits.
You have the freedom to experience grief attacks or memory embraces.
You have the freedom to develop a support system.
You have the freedom to make use of ritual.
You have the freedom to embrace your spirituality.
You have the freedom to allow a search for meaning.
You have the freedom to treasure your memories.
You have the freedom to move toward your grief and heal.

Thursday, 1 September 2011

Angel's Service of Remembrance

Here are a few photos from Angel's service of remembrance on August 26, 2011.  We had many family and friends attend to support us that day and will never forget the love we felt for us and our daughter.  At the end of the service, we released several painted lady butterflies, to honour and release Angel into her new world.