Anger

Today I learned that a friend of mine who had previously lost her son at 37 weeks has now lost her rainbow, as she had a miscarriage.

Hearing news like this makes me angry, sad, frustrated, disheartened. The main emotion though is anger. Anger at the universe. Did my friend really need to lose another baby? Where is the fairness in that? Where is the karma? I do not understand.

I think my perspective on having babies has totally changed. I actually feel relief when I hear a baby makes it here safely, whereas in the past it was more of a blissful, ignorant expectation that of course they will.

My friend, I am so so sorry.