Life illuminated

In commenting on another babyloss mom's blog earlier this week, I told her that I felt life since the loss is illuminated in all aspects.  And it is so true, I feel sorrow deeper, and yet I feel joy stronger, those elucid moments of joy that happen in between the grief.  I still feel many deep and sad emotions about this loss, and I expect to carry that for the rest of my life.  But I do feel hope and joy and gratitude also.  I am grateful that Angel is my daughter and that she has taught me so much about myself and about life.  She has changed me forever, in ways I will continue to discover.