What I grieve for

While ultimately I grieve for Angel and her life that we have lost - her presence in our lives that is now gone….I grieve for many things. 

This may be surprising, but not only have I lost Angel but I have lost friends (or for some - they may not be “gone” but relationships have changed), I have lost faith, and my sense of who I am in the world. I grieve for how strong I used to feel. I grieve for the hope I had. 

I saw another woman walking down the street just smiling to herself the other day and I looked at her and felt distanced from her happiness.  It is hard to come to terms with all the changes that I am going through.  As time goes on, I am learning to accept these changes, however some parts are easier to accept than others.